Can you be thankful for depression, anxiety, and OCD?
Without my darkest days, most of my art (including many things I post on this blog) would not be possible. Emotional people create beautiful things. It’s strength and weakness – a beauty and a curse. Just as logical people have gifts of order and truth, but not necessarily empathy.
Can we be thankful for our weaknesses?
I believe we can.
Granted, I’m not grateful for them most of the time. But after a really hard day, when I’ve been up till midnight painting because I just can’t sleep, wrestling with my mind, and I see a piece of artwork I’m satisfied by sitting on the desk, I am able to be thankful for that dark moment that produced it.
We CAN be grateful for the scary situations – they allow you to connect with people on a deep level. Sometimes it takes those circumstances for somebody to break down her walls of isolation.
We CAN be grateful for the pain – because if there’s that much pain in the world, there’s that much love.
Why does great art come out of pain?
Because when we’re happy, we want to hold that emotion in as long as possible. But when we are broken, and sorrowful, we can’t handle it on our own – it is a way to share your story and your pain, let people know they’re not alone, an educational tool to teach others what it is like to experience a mental disorder, and allows you to express victory over the darkness. ‘See,’ you can say to your OCD, ‘you meant this for evil. But God used it for good.’
ANYWAY, I thought I would show you my past experiments in visual art, starting from early childhood art to present day. I must add that it is all my parents’ fault for encouraging a passion for crayons! They taught me to be creative and to express myself. So here’s
Art In Increments
My earliest art was about some really important issues facing us today – namely, the issue of children’s television:
In case you can’t tell, these are pictures of ‘Clifford the Big Red Dog’, and ‘Winnie the Pooh.’
Then, I began a study of the individual versus society. This involved drawing dozens of like, but unlike, characters:
I believe this composition was inspired by ‘One Hundred and One Dalmatians’. In case you can’t tell, those are Dalmatians.
An illustration of a Bible story – Jesus riding into Jerusalem on Palm Sunday:
I grew more concerned with realism as I grew older:
I also experimented quite a bit with watercolors – I still do, in fact. Oil pastels were cool, too! I also became interested in photography, and photo editing. The picture you see through one filter:
is very different from the picture you see through another:
Finally, here are couple more up to date works –
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed the history of a young art-dabbler! It’s been fun – thanks for reading!